Today, close to tears, I mourn my self that life is not the panacea I seem to have had in mind…for today. Little space in which to ply hard-won skills, I am forced to ask for favors, instead of getting fair-market value in a market for which there is no obvious demand.
Favors: bribes upon my character; psychic debt; stinging loss of integrity’s feathers and petals. My man-child’s leg crumpled beneath him: knee bent out of dimension, requiring repair. ‘They know what they’re doing,’ we’re told. ‘Do they know what they’re doing?’ – we ask.
Time will tell. Youth’s aches, temporary, remarkably self-healing, can be rubbed away with an ease that surprises.
Do they know what they’re doing?
We repress the question, but it asks itself in the midst of night’s dreams and wakefulness.
Today, close to tears, sitting here, waiting for…tomorrow?