She pursued a life’s career with savvy and good will. At one point she became the leader and director and maker of many decisions that affected the people under her. She was the pipeline to policy and on the end of telephones galore; discussing, deciding, telling, thinking.
After many years, approaching the years of possible wisdom, a time when knowledge might be distilled from knowing, she became somewhat famous. Being known far and wide, she changed tactics, changed her career, became a doer in…in the inner circle…in… in the wider arena.
She had become powerful.
Powerful! The word rang and buzzed in her being, that she was powerful. She could enter larger arenas, make her world better, even good, within some visions that she worked at; having and being. She discovered within a certain sense of flattery and adulation, that she was powerful, that her fame had propelled her peripherally; that she was operating in a place which had a great deal to do, but could do nothing because it was all honorific there.
And so she bolted, and began to rethink.
The conundrum: having become powerful she had lost most of her power.