Sitting here: writing, listening to the music of the organ, thinking, believing that I think lifeâ€™s important thoughts. Teaching: a telling from the erstwhile possessor of knowing what there is of knowledge, to some set of eager students whose self-pleasing is to please or placate me. Reading: all of historyâ€™s greatest thinkers who have survived in writing, studying style, criticizing from this today all of the ideas of the all of time. Observing: seeing what others have seen and seeing through what I have been taught to see. All of these: I tell my self how wonderful is knowing, and knowing that I know.
My arrogance untested, my sense of power sails to heights beyond.Â Nothing can stop me now! It is as if I have condensed all of lifeâ€™s experiences into reading what I please and what pleases me…observing my self observing.
Too easy. Self-serving.Â Aggrandizing. Suspicious.
That which I do not read is that which I cannot understand: that which I do read is that which I already know.
Wary: of becoming my own selfâ€™s teacher, now full circle, life a mere celebration of powerâ€™s exaltation.